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I'm not feeling homesick for once. I was so concentrated on my work, only measurements appeared. Then, I found my mind floating through Ikea and Curve spaces. I don't know. I don't really miss it as I rarely go to those places. It's more likely a walkthrough thought. I don't know. Maybe I need some sleep.

Stop bugging me!!

Sigh, It's about my hair again. I've used to maintain my hair once a month but it's too expensive to maintain it here. The only thing I can do is to have a decent hair cut once in every few months. 

It's either I trim my own hair or with the help of my friends. It's always simple trimming until I caused disaster to myself last febuary. This is the Seventh month and I have not been to any hairdresser.

I've always said to myself, go to the Japanese hairstylist in London cz only Asians knows Asian's hair the best. (that's from asian forums about bad haircuts from the ......*ahem*)

Kill me...

It's £35 per haircut this time. That is like RM173 PER HAIRCUT!! 

Normally, I'll go for RM15 per haircut max and now?? RM173!?!?


The question is.... Should I?

太鼓の達人 プラス

ここにある！!

無料で遊べるのはここまでですが、

DLCで他の曲を購入することが出来ます。

どれも5曲入って600円!!

探る日本 iTunes App Store

Oh no you din't girl!

B*TCH! I KNOW U F$@#^@#(^@#*&@^%#ckin stole my shirt!! It was in the my shopping bag!! I'm taking the S and XS size and YOU stole my S size and paid. IT'S NOW SOLD OUT!!! 

I BELIEVE IN KARMA B*TCH!! You betta watch your back when you're out in the streets with the shirt. I'm gonna run over a pile of dirty petrol water and freakin stain your F&@#kin shirt!

With wings and fly!

Sometimes I wish I have the freedom of speech...

I could say whatever I want,

Just express whatever I felt like it,

Shoot needles aimlessly.

But no.

For the sake of being nice.

(Lame excuse... I know...)

丑

很多的時候，
我們覺得生活裡頭都希望有一個丑角，
但是丑角為甚麼要叫小丑，
丑角這個名字，
對很多人來講，
好像不是一個好聽的名字，
但是他帶給你歡樂。

可是你的歡樂，
是建築在他的痛苦上面，
但對每個丑角來講，
他都有個夢，
就是想讓你高興。

我有時都很享受做個丑角，
就是人生的那麼一小點的犧牲，
可以帶給身邊的人快樂，
可帶給他人歡笑的回憶，
我就很滿足了。

Sigh... It's so Fabulous!!

This is what triggered me. Been having this trouble since I've arrived. I can't live without blow drying my after shower. It just happens. I did it on purpose last night and it got tangled up again. But this by far, is the worst situation ever.

I've noticed my wig while looking at my Europe trip pictures and there, my itchy hands. Next thing you know, I started trimming the back hair.

AND............. DISASTER......

Bald...

It's 11pm and I've made a superhero call. She smoked screen here and she had her ninja scissors and Shurikens .... Trim Trim Trim and came along a DJ + VJ + Performer.

and I survived!!

Tragic...

It's painful and it hurts much! What is wrong with my mac these days? Is it the punishment from the copyright agencies for d#wnl@ding TONS of movies? I know I shouldn't be doing such an awful act but hey, UK internet speed is tremendously at the speed of light! I have to harvest it fully! Sucking the juice to every bits! Not a bit will be put to waste. I am aware that I was once busted few months back. Evidence have shown that my mac was downloading Eat.Pray.Love. Yes, Julia Roberts betrayed me. There goes my clean record.

This time, Iphoto's gone mental for sure. To summarise the long story, I've accidentally deleted all (70%) of my Europe study trip photos. Amazing ones especially Ronchamp ones, from the great, the legendary Le Corbusier... *CRIES* When I noticed it's gone, I ran a deep recovery and managed to recover 90% of the 70% photos.  But still... sigh...

Guess it's time to reformat the laptop and make it freshly baked from the oven...

Reading...

Sorry for the brutal image. It has been ages I have not done any reading. I used to LOVE to read but what happened? Perhaps it's the evolution of entertainment? I have to complete a primer that titled "Make History Not Memory"with a chapter in it to be written by me. I've chosen to write about how is the relationship between China and Japan after that particular event. With that, I have to read loads of books. Unfortunately, there is only 4 books in the library that records such events which is quite a disappointment. Unlike back in Malaysia, there would be tons of books that records this event. Nevertheless, I have been reading them, trying to complete them. 

Iris Chang : The rape of Nanking

As I held the book by the bed, I find that it is addictive to read them. Chapters after chapters of stories of individual survivors. Their stories makes me feel that it is fortunate for life's to be as precious as gems. Most of them survived till today mainly because of luck but with a whole lot of experiences that you and I do not want to experience including brain bits drooling onto your face while you have to act dead and hold your breath.  I later found out that the author, Iris Chang commited suicide.  Traumatized by what she had learned and burdened by the weight of what she had taken on she killed herself on November 9th 2004.

However, reading these should not trigger my nerve for anger (which I actually did in the beginning) but to learn not to forget history yet to learn to forgive. This topic has already embedded into me, to learn memories and history together but the learned memory wouldn't be as permanent as those who spoke about. 

It's like a tattoo.

Mitch Albom! You're next. You have been on the queue for so long, I thought I might read you on the 13hours flight but I did not. Ended up with a perfect good movie on flight, some interesting interactions with the Japanese Obasan next to me and some good sleep. I will!

3 years...

Time flies huh?

Very much... Raining now and I'm stucked in the firm. Nothing much to do but boss requested to have a look at my sketch tomorrow.

Tonight will be all 'aza-aza-aza!!' (punch) sketches... and squeezing creative juice...

Will be cleaning some poo that left in the firm few years ago...

ILLUMINO

ILLUMINO ® is a series of flexi glass light tubes that Illuminates through salvaged shattered glass from construction site. It speaks as a language in a series during the dark. The movement of language extracts as a breathable life-being as a whole together.

Progress

So far so good...

I hope

Suffocating

Finally...

I can breathe....

Oh yes...

That feels good....

-Unknown-

This is my space. My column. My territorry to who I am. It's been with me for 5 years now.

Today, here I am.

Hi! I don't exactly know why I felt the urge to write here but the content is still unknown too.

Hmm. Life's been that way and the bitterness still remains after the training month. The colors had faded, guess I need a search for the colors. Maybe that is what has been playing in my mind the whole day. In search for colors. How? and where is the colors? What is colors. What am I searching for...? The sweetness? The sourness? The saltiness? The savoriness?

Sigh...

2010, 2 more years to go?!?!

5 days from the beginning of the year. Ain't that late aye~ 2010, 2 more years to go. We're getting closer towards the all-famous prophecy. True or false, we'll find out by then. Sis gone for national service for 2 days now. Her presence or shall it be, her ghostly movements somehow does make you realized that she's now gone... to.... jail... Indeed, one day you come home and you feel something is missing or something is just not right... Nevermind, 2 months... bear with it, Princess!

Happy New Year people!

Boundaries and limits

We are humans, we have souls, we have emotions, we have dreams. Everyone is different at their very own kind. and of course with their own limits as well.

We are taught to be a person with moral values. We are taught to be kind and nice. We practiced the theories. But we never taught to know that human have limits.

Indeed, human does have limits. But nowadays people are challenging the human limits and capability. What about emotion? That too have limits.

Tolerance and understanding from a person is limited. Each have their own lines drawn.

By understanding this, I bet would make you another better person that understands human.

Why can't I? I know it's the language...

Die.... Can't I just have my own fusion of language? Instead of having one? I explained clearly that it is a significant period, it is a mark of event, interior and exterior. I admit it is weird, but what if it is meant to be weird? Is there something wrong for it?

A piece of paper with a few gems on it. Is that weird? Help... Paper with history engraved on while the gems are the vital periods that we're supposed to remember. It is there, you can see it. I guess it's only obvious during the night time?

The Guilt

Presenting! The guilt! The sudden felt guilt for not updating my blog aka

(also known as) abandoning it. Guess what? I'm back! Instead of moving

to tumblr which I left it there half way. I think it's best to just stick onto blogger

although tumblr is friendlier. But maybe, I've just gotten used to blogger?

I'm back...

Call me an idiot...

Seriously! Call me one. I sucked bad time. To be honest, I've never seen Black or White video by Michael Jackson nor most of his other videos except for the one (donno what name) with zombies... Frankly I'm not a fan. People around go "You never listen to Michael?" I do... Just I'm not a fan and etc. (emphasizing his signature moves too). I don't get why people are so crazy for him as well. His moves are all over the place but seriously, I have a different point of view or maybe I just do not know how to appreciate dances.

If there is a chance (once upon a time) on meeting him one on one, I think would go 'So, you're the Michael Jackson, the name's Jonathan, nice to meet you...(sit down and remain silent).....' than 'OMG OMG OMG!! MICHAEL!!!!!!!!!! IM YOUR CrAZY FAN!!! YOU SHOULD KISS ME !! HERE, HERE, HERE and HERE!!!! AHHHH!!! (screams) I'm fainting! I'm fainting! Am I dreaming? Am I DREAMING!?!?!?!'

I heard on the radio the other day when they mentioned something regarding the Black and White video and goes on about Thai dancers. I was driving and had no idea what are they talking about. Decided to click on youtube just now.

Saw Jumba had an update in youtube (had been a loyal audience for many years). He was talking about how great Michael Jackson is and everything. Finally someone speaking something good for Michael on behalf! Maybe from my side. He was totally backing him up. Seriously, finally someone is looking at the good side instead of the bad side of him which it does impress me. I have no feelings of lost for Michael, just being normal and shock with his sudden death. After his speech, I had a sudden flashback where I used LOVE his Free willy song and the earth song. I remembered after watching free willy, I would stay for the ending credits and go along with the song and I would watch free willy again!

Being in my shoe, I see it differently. Radios and the community of facebook went on and on about Michael and I wonder, Why now? Why people starts to appreciate someone when only the person dies? Why everyone looked at what he did than his talents? Everyone is being too fake. Audrey said, it is to celebrate his career. Okay.

Checked out the video. I was inspired by the video although is not so successful to my eyes but it did inspired me with the message his trying to send out. Nearing towards the end of it. I noticed something. *rewinds* ' Is that Tyra Banks?!?!' *Colleague leans over* 'yep'. I went on 'OMG! OMG! She's in... ' Adds in an impression point for her being successful on my list.